I think you´re crazy......baby

I had the strangest outburst of emotions yesterday, at the strangest and most inconvenient place, namely, the grocery store.

Daniel and I borrowed his parents´car to stock up on groceries. It must have started there: manoeuvering a stick-shift again after 3 months of automatic (& simple) driving was rather unnerving. I had to remind myself that I did pass the test and that I shouldn´t be so nervous, but I was.

So. We arrived at the store and loaded up the cart. Then, I had to use the store´s restroom (thank goodness they had one). Well, Daniel summoned me, because I still had his wallet in my purse, and he was already checking out. For some odd reason, this made me burst out with laughter. I quickly ran to the check-out counter, where a bunch of waiting customers were about to witness the most embarassing display of nervous hilarity. First, I giggled. Daniel gave me one of those, "is everything alright up there (in your head)?" stares. Then, I started to snort....once....twice...and again. All the while, I laughed so loudly and so uncontrolledly. We paid & got out of there. Then, having put everything in the car, I started to cry. Tears rolled down my cheeks. I was a mess. An emotional mess. I sat there, at the steering wheel, and sobbed... and felt so embarassed. Humiliated. It had been such a strange experience.
Granted, I have always had trouble controlling my laughter. But this time, there was nothing to really spur it on. It just happened. And I could do nothing about it. I must have seemed drunk, or high, or just completely insane. Daniel was rather gracious, thankfully. He could have gotten terribly angry for being humiliated like that, for having to stand by and watch as his wife lost her mind for a while, but he just told me to take a deep breath. I did... and the tears stopped, after a while.

(Thankfully, Ari wasn´t there to see me lose my mind. She was busy playing with playdough at grandma & grandpa´s house.)

It must have been the most dramatic of my emotional outbursts: the most extreme & spontaneous. But, as Daniel said, tears&laughter are linked...they´re so close together. I am going to blame it on the pregnancy. Sure, I am always a bit silly....but I think this was hormonal. Crazy hormones. They´ve been especially crazy this time around....