A familiar rant.....

Packing to move into yet another house.... It´s overwhelming- all the stuff that we´ve accumulated. Every now and then, in a burst of energy & motivation, I pack several boxes, efficiently and quickly. Then, for several hours (or days) in a row, I do nothing. I just sit and look at all the junk, not knowing what to do with it, and I wonder how much we will have collected twenty years from now. I am hoping we´ll eventually learn the art of living more simply. Clutter = chaos.

When will I learn to focus my energies on one thing??? And to go for that; to pour my whole heart and soul into the chasing of my dreams.... of one dream. If I am to believe my type-profile (the Myers-Briggs); I could accomplish great things if I could just learn to narrow down my interests. Daniel thinks that I treat the personality-tests as a sort of horoscope. I know what he means. But I´ve learned a lot about myself: the type has put a name on things that I have always known about myself, but never really understood or appreciated. It has helped me accept certain aspects of my personality. It´s alright not to be as organized as "Js". It´s okay to think out loud. All these tendencies can be approached from several angles: I could be ashamed of being fickle... or I could embrace the fact that I see a world of possibilities. It´s all about learning to turn "weaknesses" into strengths. What have you learned about yourselves? Some of you like these tests as much as I do, I know.

I guess I am just hoping that I´ll figure it out one day: that I´ll find something specific to focus on and aim for. Something great.

These days have been so strange for Daniel and me. We just can´t figure it out. Life. We can´t decide what it is that we´re hoping for. What to invest in. Obviously, we have the kids. Their well-being comes first. Those two little people are the most beautiful dream. But we´re trying to remember our older pursuits : we need to find something that we can work towards together. Knowing that the place where we settle will shape the way we raise our children... it´s overwhelming. There are so many vague ideas: we need to find out what exactly it is that we can invest in together. I envy the people whose dreams are more defined. The people who have a clear goal and take the steps necessary to get there.
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blegh. More of the same. My mind is a bit tired. Can you tell?