Job-Hunt

So, in the months ahead, I plan to rejoin the world of the living.......and look for a job.

This is intimidating for various reasons, the primary one being that it implies leaving part of the care of my children up to another (that other being Daniel, hehe :-) ).
That´s right! We´re considering a role-shift here. I haven´t worked since I got my MA degree in 2007, and I want to give it a try. This doesn´t mean that I am planning to be a career-woman altogether. No, my intention is to find a part-time job at first, so that I can still be at home with the girls several days a week. But, really, I think it will be great for Daniel to be a stay-at-home father, or, at least, to get a chance to take more of the care of the girls upon himself. And I could use some work-experience. Or a change of pace, anyhow. We´ll probably end up sharing the responsibilities: both of us will try to get a part-time job.

As for other factors that weigh heavily on my mind: I feel totally and utterly inept. I have mentioned this before, but let me emphasize it for you. I have these degrees, but doubt they will get me too far, too soon. If it were up to me, I would further my education...add some titles to the bunch. And establish some goodwill with the professors: find some ways to gain experience in the field. This is what I failed to do two years ago, when I was finishing my studies in Nijmegen. I went to class, got good grades, and that was that. I never tried to explore internship-options, or discuss the possibility of further academic research. So, here I am: a graduate without any experience in her field! This means that my job-options are pretty slim.
Sometimes I wish I were a little more confident in this aspect. You know, to apply for a job and promote myself without reservations! Instead, I am going to be like, "yeah, I don´t know why you´d hire me, either.....I have nothing to offer!"

Suffice it to say that this is all incredibly frightening. And overwhelming, in general, because, really, where does one start?? Those pages with job-vacancies make me feel so uneasy: there are so many boxes to check, so many search-terms that lead to different job-advertisements.

Ah, but I must get to it eventually. I suppose I´ll give birth first :-) Focus on what is just around the corner: the birth of my sweet second baby girl. She deserves my undivided attention first.